4 FRER, 2 Clearblue Digis and a Blood Test all say...

I am KTFU!

I can't believe it. I'm still holding my breath because I can't imagine us being so lucky as to get pregnant on our first succesful Clomid cycle. Please, baby, stick.

I POAS Tuesday night just for the hell of it. My period was due the next day and I had had some cramping. I freaked when I saw the 2nd line.... Adam freaked when he realized that he was holding a stick I just urinated on.

Wednesday morning, I went for a beta with my Auntie. She said the results were "inconclusive." Basically it was a positive, but not high enough (come to find out she thought I had said I had been pregnant since September, not that my due date would probably be Sept.), I had blood taken today and they doubled : )

First baby purchase: a diaper bag from coach : )

Merry Christmas to me and Adam!

Guess Who's in the 2WW?

That's right.... ME!

I am pretty excited to be 4dpo, with decent timing (though Adam wasn't giving it up as much as I wanted him to).

Even if this cycle doesn't result in a BFP I am still excited that I ovulated... That's right, I ovulated! Woohoo!

So, thank you 100mg Clomid. I hope that our relationship is a short but satisfying one.

Thank You 100mg Clomid

I am 99.9% sure that I ovulated yesterday. YAY!!!
And our timing isn't horrible. YAY again!

:)

Adam and I did get into a TTC argument though. Night before last he didn't feel well so we didn't have sex. I was upset but let it go because I figured we'd have sex last night. Then all yesterday evening he kept picking arguments with me. Then he didn't want to have sex because we had argued all night.
I was upset. I felt that FINALLY my body is doing what it's supposed to after a year and we're throwing it all away because he was in a bad mood.
Further, I am so close to wanting to give up, when I thought we were going to have sex I just didn't know what to do. I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired and blah.
Either way, I think he finally "got it." We ended up having fantastic make up sex :)

Stupid note: If I get KU, my EDD is Sept. 1st. 6 days before my birthday!

Cheri22

So, one of the things that has been going around thebump is a baby psychic, Cheri22 (http://www.cheri22.com/)

Basically you tell her your info, send a picture and she gives you the month that either birth, conception or BFP happens in and the sex. If you pay ($10), then she gives you a personality profile as well.

Entertaining, no?

So, I thought why the hell not? But then decided I didn't want to wait the 1 1/2 months for a free reading, so I paid $10 bucks, sent along my background and a picture of me and a picture of me & Adam.
Then I waited... and waited... and then my prediction was 1 day late.

Since I'm sure you're dying to know, here's what it said (C&P'd).

Hi Bonita

Thank you for being patient with me while I got back to your reading

 

They show you guys having a little girl and they relate her to NOVEMBER so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in

 

AS a child she is someone who is definitely going to stand out. Shes someone who I would consider to be a bit more "aggressive" and not in a bad way. Shes the type of child who really does enjoy what she does and does not want to be the one left behind<> She will often go out of her way to ensure that whatever homework she has is done the same day its assigned, and returned to school. She works hard for whatever she wants and has his expectations of herself. Always wanting to be the one that does well and always have you and her father proud;.

 

Shes someone who I would see is very good wtih seeing what is right in front of you. Not one who is going to "look the gift horse in the mouth". If someone does something nice for her, shes thankful for it, She is going to appreciate it. Sometimes people have a hard time accepting when someone does something nice, but your daughter is graceful and accepts the help if its offered.

 

Shes always going to have people seeing her as someone that they can depend on and is always going to be there when you need her. Always treating people fairly and encouraging others to do what they can to try and help out.

 

She loves skipping with the skipping rope, often her and a few other friends will practice certain games and are actually quite fast at it. She is someone who is always going to be more of the "leader" in the group. Always the one that gives the suggestions that everyone just seems to naturally follow along with. She can be pretty assertive at times when he wants something badly enough. Would rather not have to do it on her own and is usually pretty good about finding a friend to do alot of the things that she likes.

 

When it comes to your daughter, they show her linked to working in an office setting

 

 

When ti comes to marriage I am seeing her closer to 23. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.

Yup, Adam and I are going to have the next female jump roping gold medalist. :)

But I am hoping that November is the birth month (getting KU in Feb) and not the conception or BFP month. I REALLY don't want to wait that long, lol.

New Cycle, New Hope

Today is CD1.
Although, it usually means that I'm disappointed, this time, I am super excited. We are trying round 3 of Clomid at 100 mg. I am hoping and praying that it works. If not, then I know that we have a "next step."

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving! I get to take Clomid dose #1 on Friday, so it looks like I'll be shopping with hot flashes :)

RE Appointment

Ok, so I'm a little late posting this, but I had my 1st RE appointment on Friday (Nov. 12th).

I am so happy and relieved that I made this appointment. I loved the office. It was very relaxed.
We got to meet with our RE (Dr. Roach), and she sat down and talked to us about my history. I explained to her that I was Dx'd in Oct. 2009 with PCOS. I've been on birth control since I was 18, and had recently stopped taking it because we didn't care if we got pregnant or not. When I hadn't had my period in 8 months, I chalked it up to stress at work, and my body getting used to not being on birth control. When I say my Gyno, Dr. Gayle, she did some blood work and Dx'd PCOS due to elevated hormones.

Dr. Roach basically explained that she was surprised that I was started on 50 mg of Clomid, since most women with PCOS need 100 mg to respond to it. She gave us two options:

1. Start injectible medications now - this WILL make me ovulate, if it doesn't, then I might have tube blockage. This greatly increases the chance of multiples.

2. Increase my Clomid to 100 mg this cycle. If it doesn't work, then increase it to 150mg. If it still doesn't work, THEN move on to injectibles.

She said at this point, an HSG to test my tubes wasn't neccessary since I'm pretty much obviously not ovulating due to my PCOS.

We then went and had an ultrasound. I loved that she pointed everything out to us. She said my uterus is a normal shape and size and that my ovaries aren't TOO bad with cysts, but that it definately confirms it.

Adam and I decided to stick with Clomid for the next two cycles, we are hoping that the increased medications are what I need. I am taking a blood test on CD 25 of next cycle to check my prog. levels. She suggested that I stop charting if it stresses me out, but I think I'd be more stress w/o charting.

One thing she said that I really, really liked and is going to be my mantra if these two cycles don't work: "Clomid is an imperfect medication. If you do not ovulate it is not your fault, it is the medicine's fault."

Overall, I feel much more hopeful than I have in the past :)

Mini Breakdown

So, I had a temp drop yesterday. Plugged it into FF and my crosshairs got taken away.
I just couldn't DEAL with another annovulatory cycle. I take a medication that makes me feel sick EVERYDAY (metformin), I take another one that makes me feel shitty 5 days out of my cycle and gives me hot flashes (Clomid), and then I take one that makes me fucking crazy after the first two don't work so I can get my period (Provera)

ALL of that, and my damn body won't cooperate. I am so frustrated. Out of the 11 months we have been trying I've had the opportunity to get pregnant ONCE... ONCE!!!

I'm over it. I just don't care anymore.(lie)

I can't wait to get to the RE next Friday and get some answers